Single Mom Striking Out

The first few funerals that my relatives had to attend, I noticed how sad and distraught they were when they hear the news and when they come home after. I felt sorry for them. But as the years wore on, there were more and more funerals. My relatives are not young anymore and it is as if they have become numb to news of funerals. In fact, while I fought the urge to cry when one of the relatives was murdered brutally in a burglary, I noticed that the other relatives have the expression of acceptance. They did not even have anger in their hearts about the murderer. They were not furious and were not filled with hate. They just accepted it as it is, respected their dead sister in every way possible and went on with life.  In fact, the rest of us were more furious than they were and demanded the man be put to death for doing what he did. For them, they were like he will get what he deserves and it is not something they can control anymore. Nothing can bring their sister back t...

Things are not going particularly well for me here and I feel a little helpless and in despair. No one likes feeling this, I am sure but what's really good about me is that I tend to roll with the punches quite well. I keep reminders that I look at from time to time to remind myself that nothing is constant. Nothing in this world is forever.  Including problems and situations that we are in.  If you are feeling the same way, maybe this can serve as a reminder to you too.

You know how when you've been living in a place, particularly a house, you tend to accumulate a whole lot of stuff that you don't even remember buying or owning? Yup, this is kind of happening over here right now and as you age, you discover you don't need as many things. Hence, I am and will be trying to sell off some of the things that I think is merely taking up space, don't serve a purpose anymore or can benefit someone else if sold. And finding myself attaching to those items. Even things that I have never even made use of before and things that I thought only got in the way of life itself.  Like a painting. I find myself thinking but it's been there since forever, since we've moved in  and but the wall looks so different  without the painting there . Change and letting go of things is not easy for me, I don't know about the rest of you. Some people like to declutter...and that is why I suffer when it comes to change.  But slowly, one by on...

My boys are all grown up now and I know it is in vain because I can't stop them from growing up. They are supposed to. This is the way parenting works and we are not supposed to hold onto them forever. But it's hard. Very, very hard! If you are a parent, you might even sympathize with me but in more ways than one, letting go is an amazingly difficult thing to do. I have been letting it hold me back for too long. My kids, collectively, is my comfort zone, for every reason people tell me that I do not belong, they give me hundreds of other reasons to believe that I belonged. I resist change like no other but there is a reason for everything and there will come a time when we need to loosen our grip about things we can and cannot control. This serves as a reminder to myself, actually. I hope it is a good reminder for others like me too. I hope I am not alone.

I read something on the Internet that resonated with me...that Synchronicity happens for a very good reason, there are no accident and coincidences. This is in light with what happened in a Cincinnati Zoo where an innocent (but potentially dangerous) endangered gorilla had to be killed in an effort to save a child. Many were questioned, some accused, some stand confused, some thought it was the right decision while others went on to play the blame game. But when you look at it from the point of synchronicity, wouldn't you say that the incident happened to:- Remind parents to look out for their children ALL THE TIME. As a mother of two rumbustious boys (who are teenagers now), I know all too well how hard that is but it has to be done. Kids get away from you like in a split second Zoos have to be more secure, no two ways about it either Kids should be taught about the dangers of some animals BEFORE they get to a zoo (or anywhere dangerous, anyway). They have to be reminded ...