Laptop Lifestyle

I've written it somewhere that the ultimate life I wish to live and experience once my kids are grown up is that I can work from anywhere. My work allows me to travel, move around and earn as I go. But I've never really done anything to experience this, hanging onto the fact that I love my home, where I live and I don't want to go anywhere because change is a big hassle.

But there comes a time when there's not much of a choice. The time could be now.

It makes me sad and cautious because I don't like change very much and always prefer status quo. Maybe it's time to change this, to put this to a test, to show myself that I can adapt. In fact, when I was young, change was exciting and something new to look forward to.

As I age, I relish the idea of having a place, a refuge, to call home. Anywhere I am challenged and tired, I return to my refuge and I am comforted. Although I no longer have a bunch of people (a family) to live with, to support me and take care of things when I am not able to, at the very least, we have a roof over our heads and we can do anything we like in a place we call home.

Things change. This is something I think I may have to face in the very near future. After all, watching the people around me change and adapt, I think I can do it too. After all. I am OK. I am strong enough for this because I have the people that I love around me. I can do it.

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