Last Few Days In This Beloved Abode

We are leaving. Really leaving. It's sad and heartbreaking but we have had enough time to face this devil. Maybe it's not even a devil. It's just a transition to something else, be it good or bad. But it's one thing for sure: growth and expansion.

You know how some brides and grooms have running-away thoughts before their wedding day? Yeah, I am facing them right now.

I have doubts that we will be comfy in the new place, that I made a big mistake, and that I should have rented a condo instead. But you know what? What's done is done. I only have to face the consequences of my decisions and go with the flow, fix what needs fixing and make sure we can fit in as quickly as possible.

Yes, there's much to be done and it's going to take time and money but it's all going to be ok. We just need to slowly adjust to the new circumstances.

This is not the first time I've moved home. But it's the first time we are moving as three grown people. Back then, my kids had not much say and don't really have an opinion. Now it's different. What they think and need is different now than before.

It's not easy and I hope we will be able to quickly and as seamlessly as possible adjust to what's ahead of us because, like it or not, it's ahead of us.

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