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Morning Mourn

Today, we woke up late for classes and I am in such a foul mood. It's not as if we were doing anything strenuous, not as if I had a drink the night before, and it was just a normal day that I signed off work (and after watching a drama) at around midnight.

And yet, my kids at age 19 and 17, still don't give a shit about their own stuff and schedule. It is really frustrating when everything falls on my shoulders. It's my fault, I guess, for babying them and always handling everything for them.

I know for the rest of the day, my mood is going to be just foul and resentful.

Is it normal for me to feel this way? For me to be angry that I was also one of those who did not manage to wake up early for classes? But at some point, the kids would have to be more mindful about their own stuff? Is it me shrugging off my responsibility as a mother?

When is enough enough?

I am just venting and ranting because I sometimes feel overwhelmed and helpless about this whole 'waking up' thing. None of us are morning people and we always struggle to make it for things in the morning. And we're always procrastinating.

Time for me to sit down and write down some rules and things we can change around this house.

Sometimes I feel like they're just housemates who are always in their own rooms, not family or anything, and I've been viewing a few condos these past few days, and one of the main concerns is that each of them need their own rooms. And this has caused me quite a few problems. Just to accommodate their need for their own personal space, shouldn't they be paying their own rent?

I'm going off the rails right now, am I not?

I know. But let me have this one shot because I am feeling so frustrated with a few things and this is my blog, after all.

Single mothers have tough.

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