Single Mom Striking Out

I feel sad today because I lost my temper. I should have kept my cool but couldn't. I tried but he was really giving me attitude. I felt like all those years as his mom was wasted and my effort went down the drain. However, sometimes, this is what a family is like. We get impatient, lose our temper, declare war, or even spend years not talking to each other, sometimes, over petty stuff that could have been overlooked. This is what being a human is like - conflict and resolution even within a family. Actually, especially within a family. At the back of my mind, of course, was my own guilt and self-blame. My own regrets and anger. I wonder if I have done the right things. On the outside, everything looks fine and I am confident but on the inside, there's a raging fire. There's war. One day, I will know how to handle this inside war better. Not today because I lost an inner battle with myself. I also wonder if I am better off being somewhere else, or being with someo...

I don't name and shame a lot. I make it a mission not to be mean to people or organizations because I believe there's always another side to the same story. I should consider all sides before going to the extreme. But this time, I am going to do it because the organization is one of the most despicable one as far as education center is concerned. My kids have been going to Grace Resource Center , now Grace Academy (as they would like to be called), formerly known as Grace Homeschooling Center, since they were little ones. After pulling them out from a private school called Sri Inai Beaconhouse because of the escalating cost and my lack of belief in the public education system (which they were studying for), I enrolled them in Grace Resource Center for, first, their Christian-based education program. I didn't mind despite the fact that I am not a Christian because they teach good values and helps my kids be better people on top of learning what they need to learn educa...

After staying in this new home, my cousin's former home, for a month or so, I can finally say that I feel safe, comfortable and have a refuge. I can't believe we stayed in a house that felt like a torture house for 7 months before this. They say some things happen for a reason and that we won't see the reason until a little later...it's true. What happened, no matter how senseless and cruel it felt at that time, was actually a blessing in disguise. By kicking us out of that house that he prides so much of owning and renting out, the landlord may have done us a favor. So, I should silently thank him for being the asshole that he is and I hope I never have to deal with him again. Now that I think back, there was a time that I naively suggested that maybe we could work together in the future since he was sort of in the same field. I remember his scoff. I was puzzled and didn't think much about it although I felt it was uncalled for and bordering on rude, but I di...

US President, Donald Trump, has this to say about the gun laws in the United States: "They go out and they shoot and they go to ranges and they have a tremendous amount of fun." I understand where he's coming from although I think the solution is pretty simple and straight-forward. Ban guns OUTSIDE of where they think it's fun. Keep them in ranges or in homes of those who are responsible enough to deal with guns. Assault weapons have no place in a free, safe society. Guns are meant to hurt, destroy, injure, or kill. That's what they're made for. So, what is wrong with the American mindset? Why are they so afraid of changing the law? Isn't there enough death by now?  If you want a safer America, the solution is simple if they want to see it: ban the guns, remove them, take them away. Plain and simple. In the meantime, I'll just keep to my life, as you wish, my fellow human beings. You do you but that was my take. Take it or leave it.