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life is a football field

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I got this from this website that I frequent, TinyBuddha.com. Very nice and inspirational website.
None of us chooses to be born, but we all choose from moment to moment to really live or to merely exist.
Choose life today.
Face your fears. Take a risk. Jump out of your comfort zone. Do what you love. Share your passions with people. Say yes to possibilities. Use your strengths. Say what you mean. Love with abandon. Ask questions. Give answers. Be present. Be authentic.
Looks so simple on paper, so hard to do. I don't know when was it that I lost the ability to say 'screw it, let's rock this shit'. There is no single one moment to put your finger on. No 'this is x moment. the very moment that you decided that everything has to be carefully construed, planned and mapped out. never will you, from this moment on, be able to live with impulse and spontaneity.'

whenever it was and whatever it is, i believe that i am not alone.

i am just one of those who dare to say that it serves as a weak spot for us. especially since i became a parent, everything has to be careful.

no, buddha says you have to be brave to confront your fears and tell them to 'come get me, i pray for your safe return'. not very zen-ish, eh? but hey, i may (be trying to) be a zen, chic mom but i am still human. i am not typing this blog from nirvana yet.

we have to look at every moment as a singular moment. every moment is a gift. live like you know it's going to end.

ok, here's an analogy. just imagine that you are a 10-year-old kid. your mom is standing to the side of the football field and you're playing a fun game of football. you know that at any moment now, your mom's gonna say 'ok, time's up! let's go home!'

so, what do you do while she's still standing there? do you sit down and mull over the fact that you are not given FOREVER to play in the football field or do you kick the bloody ball so effing far, everywhere, let your hair down and just cartwheel, do everything in the reverse, behave like a baffoon, make everyone laugh, make YOURSELF laugh....while knowing that your mom's gonna call it time soon.

i don't like to think of my mom as death. i think of her as home. earth is just the football field.
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