Bad news comes along everyday but last year alone, quite a few bad news struck me. The timing was like a mechanical pendulum. I thought to myself several times that I had enough, that what I needed was a break. A 10 day retreat where I am required to speak to no one, do nothing, listen to silence and nature and just be what I am meant to be.
But real life is not something you can escape for a long period of time. I served my silence....but reality will pendulum-swing back.
A friend passed away after being in a coma for a few months. I know both husband and wife and they've always been really positive about handling the toughest of life situations. We may not agree with everything, but we do agree on many. During the time she was unconscious, I prayed every single day. I kid you not.
Her husband would report about her condition, good or bad, and I would either offer thanks or pray for good news and strength. Even during the worst hit moments, I kept the positive vibes going, refusing to give up. It CAN be turned around.
But it didn't.
I felt my faith in humanity diminish in just seconds after her husband announced the news. Life was unfair, prayers are of no use whatsoever, good is always on the losing side, there is no God.
I was angry, of course.
Also last year, I heard news of a relative passing away after a long fight with brain cancer. This was followed TOO SOON after with news of another relative suffering from cancer.
It all didn't make sense. All these people were too young, their lives threatened too soon, they have so much more to give to this world, and they don't deserve the deck of cards that they were dealt with.
But that's life, isn't it?
How are we to live with anger in our hearts about what life gives us or what others have done to us? We'll live a bitter life, no matter how long or short the life is, and if it becomes bitter, is it worth living? And that's not in line with how I view life should be like.
A short life can be meaningful and sweet.
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