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Down Days

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I am having one of those down days, or month, where everything seems to be falling apart at the same time and funds are running out. I take heart in the fact that along the way, some things got fixed too. But you know...one of THOSE days when everything seems to be working against you.

I just have to remember that nothing lasts forever, including bad times and down moments like these.

Counting my lucky stars and being grateful for things that ARE right in my life, I shall write an extra 'gratefulness note' tonight and place it into my 'thankful jar'. I have one but I am not consistent about writing them and placing them in the jar.

I am just human and am allowed to feel the way I am feeling without the extra weight of guilt. I don't deserve it.

Just thinking...people who have never walked a day in my shoes will never understand what I go through. They never will. My son just told me that I am one of the most resilient people in the world. This boy is an amazing boy. I know he loves me to the end of the world, I know. Sometimes, it seems as though I am the only person he tries to please in this world (although he does have a smart mouth on him, he doesn't use it very often on me) and I don't necessarily think that's ideal.

Whatever, it's been a tiring day, I've got dishes to wash, rubbish to take out, lunch to cook, floor to mop, laundry to put away, work to finish editing, a website to publish and sleep to enjoy later on.

It's just one of those days.
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