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Loneliness

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Is loneliness humankind's worst punishment? So says the show that I am watching right now and I wonder if it's true.

Do people have to grab whoever, the next best person or someone tolerable and we don't hate too much, just so that we don't have to eat dinner alone, shop alone, visit the doctor alone or sleep alone? Is alone all that bad and is it really the worst curse on the human heart?

With that said, everything is always changing, the world is evolving and the table is consistently turning and we've been taught that hanging onto things is quite unwise. Hanging onto people is the same, is it not? Clinging on causes the most pain in the world, says some religious texts, and if that is true, isn't looking for someone just to feel complete a paradox? 

I have a friend who is constantly in need of people around him/her and this has to do with her/his current change of status, in terms of relationship and family. So, his/her complaint of being too alone, empty and trapped feels like something I want to refute all the time. 

Maybe I have not reached the stage whereby loneliness has hit me as bad. I AM lonely because I am single, I work from home and very detached from my immediate family members (our relationship is just as such - I don't know why - something is wrong with me, I guess) and if someone asked me if I felt lonely, my answer would be Yes, I am lonely but I would follow it up with 'But I think sometimes, most of the time, I am fine with it'. 

One fine day, I would have to relearn the art of tolerating being with people, being understanding and perhaps, stop believing that I can do everything myself. Someone once told me that I am not an island and I believe it is true. I am no island. 
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