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Do Not Be Ashamed of your Feelings and Life

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Why do I feel guilty for feeling something I know that is almost completely natural? Is something wrong with me? Am I overly sensitive again or am I just living in my own bubble? Am I OK to the world, is the world OK to me?

Am I just immersed in ONE person, one GROUP or just living in my own mind-bubble? Letting others determine whether you are living your life right or not should not be the way. Everyone has his or her way of living their lives, and just because one person does not see it the way you do, does not mean that YOU are wrong, or she/he is wrong.

There is no right or wrong. There's just you...and them...and us...all trying to live and survive in this messy world. Everyone has wars and battles that they are not showing. Well, some show it more than others but everyone has his or her own ghost.

Should our battles intertwine, then we should help each other in ways that we can or can afford to, in time and in money. But if we can't, then there is to be no blame. But the bottom line is that no battle is to be ashamed of. I don't have to like the fact that my battles are aired and people are thinking of me in ways that I don't like to be thought of, but it is the truth. I've never been one to hide my true situations and life. It's always been out in the open if asked. In fact, sometimes it is out in the open when NOT asked.

I think that's the way I would like to live my life, and it's always been the way I lived. I don't like to feel this shame when people look at me, think of me or remember me. I am not someone you should be ashamed of. I am someone you should be proud of. Simply because I have come this far.

No, I am not superhuman and no, I am not super-successful. But yes, I am super alive.
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