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Making Space in My Life For Others

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My life is so full of everything that I treasure and love that I don't really have time for other people..... In particular, a soul mate.

Seriously, someone asked me the other day if I was 'in love' as if I have someone in my life.

Although there are people in my life and some are interested but I find it absolutely tiring and frustrating. It is like I have to 'deal with' another person, as if my life is not already full right now.

I love my kids but being a single mother is tough stuff and people sometimes assume that we 'just need a little love/sex'. Er.... No. Far from it. What I need is a lot more space for myself.

I know I have the kids right now and I don't feel lonely, there are people promising me that my life will change drastically when they grow up, but at this point, I just want to trust my gut.

If I feel like someone can enrich my life with love and encouragement, then I will trust my gut. If I feel that someone is simply fooling around and wasting my time, I should also trust it.

Some might say that it is a closed-door mentality... And they could be right. I might have my doors and windows closed, actually, but whoever I open the door for better be the right person. That's all I need.

Someone decent. Someone fun but not reckless. Someone confident but not arrogant. Someone full of life but not a leech. Someone who knows how to read me. Someone who accepts me for all that I am, flaws and all.

I know it sounds like such a tall call but I think I deserve that. If there is no one in this world for me, so be it. I don't want to just settle anymore, or endure or persist when it is not worth persisting.

I deserve it because I have been patient and I am capable of so much in return.

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